Journal Entry: Thu Apr 25, 2013, 7:03 PM
Ever since I was young, I've found it very difficult to do anything for myself, not in terms of making food or living, but in terms of creating. I feel guilty when I try to make something for myself, so I never end up finishing it . Where does this guilt come form, you might ask? I've giving lots of thought and I can place to grade school, I wasn't a good student I never listened, Id get intruble in art class for not drawing the 'right things' or in English for not writing the 'right story's' I had to be a good little node like every other kid in my class, we couldn't be free thinkers. I can recall thin project we had to do, We had to draw a picture and hide as many letters in it we could. Now this was by no and epic work I turned out but were my fellows had only hidden one or two letters in there work I'd manged to hide all 26 letters. I got failing grade. Why you might ask? Well the teacher thought I'd tried to hard.
I really feel these things hold me back as an artist but I cant seem to get over of this. So I'm asking you all for help.
Give me some requests PLEASE. I want to draw so freaking bad but I can't finish my own work please please PLEASE help me!